So a few little thoughts just to get them off my mind.
1, when will I stop the negative talk to myself. Am I always going to have to battle it? I am still playing the game of turning a negative into a positive and rephrasing how I word things so that thay are more positive - or at least less negative.
2, when am I going to get a decent job? I have had a string or jobs where I work like a dog, for not much reward nor enjoyment. I believe this probably comes from me not thinking that highly of myself, believing I can do anything etc etc etc. Well being the fat kid fucking sucks and is shit for your confidence!
3, Am I going to turn in to a hormonal ignorent rude crass two-faced bitch like my boss? I can answer that - NO!
4, Money is a bastard. There is never enough of it, it disappears way to easily and is so hard to get - WTF. If it takes me 4 weeks of working 42+hrs each week to earn enough money to pay my bills, eat and drive to work. Why does it take all of two days at the start of the month for all that money to have gone and been spent on said bills and me to be left with less than £50??!! again WTF??!!
Not in the best of moods. I am going to be now to watch an old biggest loser, sleep and then smiley happy Beth will awaken, fight the good fight again tomorrow and I have booked my first class at the gym!
Night night
If you got this far of my blog - I apoligise for the language, bad mood and bad spelling as I cannot be bothered to correct any!!
Peace and love xx