I've looked up "alcoholic" and "alcohol abuser" lately. Clearly I'm concerned about how much I drink. But nothing I've found so far really addresses what I'm feeling. "Have you missed work becuase of drinking?" Well no, but I have had days where I'm not all there because I had a few beers the night before. "Have you lost friends and aliented loved ones with your drinking habits??" Actually quite the opposite- the majority of my social network revolves around drinking- sometimes there is a premise for the drinking sometimes not. But at the end of the day it's drinking events. I suppose I could just not drink at those events, but why?
I don't have the signs of a problem drinker, much less an alcoholic. But it holds me back. It keeps me from being the best "me" I can be. I want to excel in my career, I want to be able to do amazing things with my body, and I want to be able to do both of those things for a long, long time. And drinking doesn't stop me from that, but it is currently holding me back from doing my best at it. And so here I am, betting money on losing weight becuase that is the biggest negative symptom of my drinking that I have- I am borderline overweight because I drink too much. Without the amount of calories from booze I consume I would likely drop weight like it's going out of style. And so, I'm here to try. In my attempt to shift my mindset from "why not drink??" to "why drink??" I have laid the money on the line and want to see what I can do.
Cheers!
- Let's share a trail run instead of a drink :)