I never struggled with my weight as a child, except that when I grew too fast, I'd get frightfully thin. In my teen years, I settled into a healthier weight. Being active as a dancer helped keep me thin, but I never really had to force myself to eat differently or work out harder than I wanted to. I guess that's why I never developed those good habits. At 23, I got married, and had two children at 24 and 25, respectively. I lost all the baby weight both times, just with minimal working out and breastfeeding. Then it all started piling back on. Between depression and anxiety, the stresses of being a mom and business owner, and not having the time or knowledge to cook healthy meals, the weight came on in five pound intervals over the course of the last six years. I am now almost 40 pounds over what I felt was my healthiest weight.
Over the last year, I have worked very hard to change the way I saw myself. I have learned a lot about taking care of my body and my mind, but I still don't have the best habits. I am working hard not to HATE my body, and I was really doing fine with that until the most recent weight gain. Right now, I just don't feel attractive or healthy. I have scoliosis, and my back has been going out more often, I believe because of the extra weight. I can't do this anymore.
So I'm getting on my expensive treadmill this morning. And drinking some water. And brewing kombucha. Time to get a move on. In order to lose the required weight, I need to lose about 2 pounds per week. So here goes nothing. :)