I am so excited about this DietBet, Chris and Heidi have provided a lot of inspiration and insight since I started watching EWL this season.They are great role models and are so relatable, they are real people with their own real struggles and battles. Also I have related to several of the participants this season, including Rachel, and Marissa [Shane]. I have struggled with binge eating and also sneak eating my whole life. It's great to see others like me succeeding and overcoming.
The bet has not even started though, and I am struggling with self doubt and negative self talk. At first glance, 4% does not sound like a lot, but for me it is going to be about 11 pounds. I have "only" lost 7 pounds in the past 30 days, so I am planning my game plan. Stumbling block # 1 is that i presently have bronchitis. My brain is signaling one thing, my body is saying the opposite. I feel defeated that the past 88 days i have been focusing 85% on nutrition and not a lot on fitness, and i end up sick. I was going to go on and get back into the gym this week after a long absence, to give my body time to adjust to the typical water weight gain that I always see in my first week, but that is not happening.
I don't want to take myself too too seriously, but the last time i entered a weight loss contest i became highly competitive and won the 1st prize. That was before i hit the big 40 though, I'm a different person now inside and out. I've had a lot of ups and downs. This year a 6 year relationship ended, and my father just passed away in May. Since I started back to eating healthy, i have faced a fair share of shame with having gained so much weight in the first place. But I think I am ready for this challenge, I am crossing my fingers and toes that by Monday I will be gym ready and bet ready and that four weeks out of the gate I will cross the line a winner of my first DietBet!