Wowsers! Yesterday was rough, tough, painful and almost impossible for me. I didnt think of journaling last night because I didnt have the sheer energy. Why? Very simple, my daily promise was no simple sugars. Easy? Yes, but not so much. I embarked on my day thinking that this quest of a daily promise was an easy fete, beneath my capabilities of just saying No. Well was I ever in for a surprise. If I recall correctly, 1.5 hours into work, I had already said No to an average of 5 white sugar carbohydrate ridden foods. ICK! The entire day was filled with cravings, withdrawals and an overall feeling of fatigue and latency. If I was inclined to break my daily promise it would have been yesterday, as that was literally the toughest promise I have challenged myself with in months. As I reflect and ask myself why, I myself am not even sure. In the past I have challenged myself both physically and emotionally, never was I ready to throw in the towel or cave like I was yesterday.
The entire day was filled with carbohydrate withdrawals, and honeslty all I wanted to do was shove a donut in my face. Insanity at its finest. So I did what any person would do that didnt wanted to cave. I ate fruit when I was having the insatiable cravings, and pretended it was a warm crossiant (half kidding here). My fruit selections included apples with a few grapes on the side. The fruit selection really did help my sugar cravings, especially paired with 100+ ounces of water throughout the day. Breakfast, Lunch and Dinner did consist of lean proteins, low fat components, and greens. I just couldn't get over the need for some white bread, rice, candy bar or anything that would feed that inner carbohydrate monster.
With all the afflicted pain and withdrawals I was going through, I stuck with it! Everytime the craving for a sugar of any kind kicked in, I reminded myself that this was my daily promise. Something that I promised myself and I would not give up. I thought of my 3 sons and them looking at me and telling me that I am their role model and if only they could give up sweets like me ( insert laughter here, never happen with those 3 guys). There was also a reminder that not so long ago Halloween was months away and I was just a bi-product of October consumerize at its finest. Halloween candy was strategically placed to sway me from my daily promise.
I made it through the day as a sugar deprieved zombie of some kind. What an awful feeling! How did I let myself become a simple carbohydrate dependent person? The current DietBet I am participating in runs through Thanksgiving. I have decided to cut back on simple carbohdrates as part of my game plan. Win or lose, this will push me physically and mentally. The withdrawals I was experiencing yesterday was an indicator that my body has been comsumed with simple carbohydrate crap. I would not choose that for myself or anyone else for that matter.
Here's to a day filled with healthy choices and as mentioned a ton of water :)
Mom of 3