The very next day after my last blog entry I woke up in panic. I couldn't remember why I ever though opening myself like that was a good idea. The embarrassment just got worse when the comments started to come in and I realised there was no taking it back anymore. Being from a family of alcoholics I have a very wary relationship with alcohol, but I imagine that must be what drunk texting feels like.
So I confess it took me days to be brave enough to read the comments. I do that kind of thing a lot, bury my head in the ground like an ostrich and expect that as long as I don't see things, they can't see me, aren't even actually real.
And now I'm so glad I finally pulled my head out. Because everyone has been so nice and kind! I didn't expect so many people to bother reading that huge post, or to come say they relate, or send their support in such a genuine way. It was so surprising, and so moving! I got teary eyed at many points.
I wanted to thank you all, because I didn't know how much I needed those kind words. It really made a difference to me. I feel much better, much braver than before. Thank you for cheering me on, you're all awesome people! I will later take the time to answer each one of you, please don't be upset if it takes a while, I'm just really, really slow when it comes to writing. Specially writing to people.
And to update you on my status, I'm actually going well! I've been eating better and healthier, losing weight at a steady pace, and I'm very confident that I'm going to make it to the end of my first bet well in time! It might be a placebo effect kind of thing, but I even felt healthier, and more energetic the last few days. Anyway, I'm still here, steady and going. I might make updates a weekly thing too, we'll see.
See you all at the finish line!