Well here it goes-- For once in my adult life I am going to make a change for good.

 

I was always active in sports and with animals growing up. I stayed pretty fit and healthy,then adulthood hit after graduation. I struggled through stress and bad relationships that I didn't know how to deal with. I found food as a comfort. It weighed the pain and frustration down. I would get over it, work off the weight and then I find myself in another bad situation that I couldn't emotionally handle. This had been a back and forth thing over the last 10 years or more. I finally was at my low point where I absolutely hated myself and decided that I was going to do something about it.

In December of 2014 I decided I was going to try to focus on myself. At the beginning of 2015, the stress of other things and getting a new job after being in the same place since high school (14 years!!) was a little stressfull and put me behind for awhile. Last fall I decided that I was comfortable enough to go all out and started working with a trainer with strength and muscle circuit training. I started with her 2 times a week and had started doing 3 times a week with her just before the Christmas break.

It's going well and I go to the gym 2-3 times additionally besides working with her. I have been frustrated though. I have only lost about 6 pounds with her. I have lost over 20 inches overall though and went down one size, I am just impatient and want to see faster results. I

have learned that I hadn't been eating enough so that's been a challenge to try to over come from an emotional eater's standpoint and knowing the destruction that I have done to myself over the years from how I had been eating. I have never put myslef first, it's always been everyone else in my life. Being by myself for a couple years now, I have finally taken the time to focus on myself. This will be year that I finally get back to the me I used to be and keep the weight off. It's a long journey, but it will be worth it and I refuse to stop thinking about myself and be selfish when it comes to my hapiness.