Hello Everyone!
My name is Allison, feel free to call me Alli. I've always been interested in blogging, but worry what people around my area would think of me. I come from a small town where my lifestyle isn't shared. I served in the Air Force for about four years, which let me live on my own and decide how I wanted to live..healthier. Recently my husband and I moved back, to live a more simple life.
I have struggled with weight for as long as I could remember. My family wasn't the type to let us eat hotess cakes all day or anything, but we had home cooked meals breakfast, lunch and dinner. It was a common thing to have people discuss healthy choices when I was younger, I was more into book reading and studying that being active outside. The sixth grade is when I really noticed weight, although I was always making comments I can't eat that i'll get fat..not really understanding what that meant.
High school I really put on the weight, I'm not the tallest so it would show. I only ever wore jeans, a t-shirt and hoodie trying to hide it. The summer afer sophomore year I went on vacation with a friend and her family. I was the biggest one there, that's when I started to starve myself. It's not what I planned, it just happened. Junior year I began to experiment with laxatives, binge eating and purging. If i was stressed I'd binge, regret what I did purge then take a laxative to be sure I didn't consume too many calories. I dropped almost 60 pounds in two months. Nothing was ever said to me, no one even questioned how I did it. If anything they were proud.
Once I joined the military I gained 40 of it back. Thankfully I had a suitemate that showed me how to be healthy. Except, when I didn't see the fast results I went back to bad habits. I would workout 1-2 hours in the morning doing cardio and weights, go to work, then at night go back to the gym for another 2-3 hours. Throughout the day only allowing myself 500-800 calories. If I went over I'd purge or take laxatives. That winter I was thankful I met my husband. He showed me how to count macros, how to understand what was on a scale didn't matter. My beauty definitely was based on a number.
We began bodybuilding together and although I self sabotage, I find my way back time and time again. The gym is the one place I feel at ease. At home I am constantly busy running around it gets exhausting. My anxiety flare, mood swings once I am at the gym I regain my balance a clear head.
I'm excited for this diet bet to help me regain that. I thank my trainer Katy Hearn, she has helped me understand all bodies are different.