Okay, I have been MIA for several reasons: LIFE IS A PAIN IN MY ASS
However, everything is beginning to fall back into place. I have finished 2 of 3 interviews and my 2nd interview went FANTASTIC, you guys I am still dancing around, screaming/squeeling, with excitement because my wildest dreams are about to come true. I have been trying to prove myself since I was 12 years old to work with the most severely mentally ill in an inpatient setting. For the past 7 years of my career I have been applying to jobs and volunteer positions justto be turned away. For the past three years I have been begging training to allow me to apply to Saint E's the most nationally known and state of the art inpatient hospital in the United States. Well, it finally happened and THEY LOVE ME! I have never had an interview go so well in my life. I am SO PUMPED and have two weeks to wait until uniform notification day. They are known for choosing "their ppl" for itnernship, post doc, full-time work, and every CEO in the hospital has been a psychologist. I know this is looking wayyyyyy into the future but I am a killer over achiever and the hardest worker I know and I KNOW I am going to blow them away. Ugh, when they saw my resume they said their only concern was that I'D BE BORED at their pace in the hospital. UHM HELLO this is my DREAM!!!! When they gave me a tour I almost burst into tears, they had me stand behind the nurse's station to show me the architecture of the building and how you can see every dormitory on every unit by standing there. It felt so surreal. I didn't want to leave. The training director left half way throught my last interview and tapped me on the shoulder and whispered "you got this" as if she had "heard enough" and already made her decision I was a shoe in. BAH!@_(#(@$)(@($#$
So now that I feel like my life's track is back in control of my own two hands I stepped on the scale for the first time in almost two weeks: 157.6. I'm up less than a pound but that's okay since I haven't really been taking care of myself. I've been staying up until 2am mock interviewing myself, and then getting up at 6am to listen to the recordings of my interviews to see if I could shape my answers to sound any more professional. I have sort've been in a "manic phase" but you HAVE to be this way if you want to make it in psychology. You have to go above and beyond the call of duty to stand out. I know I'm going up again 157 other interviewers and they only take 1-3 students per year. But I swear I killed it and they will not be forgetting about me anytime soon.
On THAT note, I am more determind than ever to reach my goal of 149 in the next 10 days. I really think I can do it since I have been eating "whatever I want whenever I want" for 2 weeks and only managed to gain 0.8 lbs. My bdy has found it's new set-weight and is ready to maintain when I eat 2,500 calories +
Also, this might be the professionalism mania talking, but I believe I can conquer the world right now, so losing weight is the least of my concerns. As long as I eat my eggs without bread for breakfast, plain tuna for lunch, and eat plain chicken for dinner every night that weight is going to MELT OFF! :D I AM SO PUMPED YOU GUYS!!! I hope everyone else is having a great dietbet and a great end to their winter season!
Oh! I am in SUCH a good mood that I walked my butt to dunkin donuts for a black coffee this morning and I walked around a tiny village called Cherry Dale in NOVA without my phone on me, just so I could soak it all in and soak in this happiness, because career climax's like this come a handful of times ... in a lifetime. And I don't ever want to forget this feeling.