Emotions are tough. I have an ex-girlfriend that I was friends with for a long time before we dated for almost 2 years and that i still really care for. Then we broke up and we've tried going back to the friendship, but its just not working. I don't let go easily and I absolutely hate losing close friends. I am carrying a lot of guilt for the relationship not working and for how it ended. This week emotions were really high, lots of texts, phone calls, frustration, anger, sadness, and pain. And that led to some overeating and unhealthy-ier eating this week. I didn't fall off the bandwagon, but I gained 1.5 lbs and feel pretty lucky and surprised that that was all. 

This dietbet thing, and the live healthy iowa challenge I'm doing, have been great supports for losing weight and eating healthier and feeling better about life in general. I've lost 23 pounds since the start of the year, which is wonderful and the most successful weight loss i've ever experienced. BUT. There is so much more I need to work on, from self esteem to dealing with emotions (especially guilt). I see how when you watch shows like the Biggest Loser and you see those people dealing with emotions and having those great camera moments where they let it all out or they finally realize what emotional or mental issue is holding them back, that then their journey really takes off.

I had a little one of those moments after Christmas, which is what started me on this weight loss and live better journey. But I need to figure out how to take the next step in regards to dealing with the emotional issues. Because, man, emotions are tough.