Why is it, you have soo many thoughts running through your head and the minute you try to organize them enough to write them out , your mind goes blank? You can't think of a single thing to type?
I guess lets start from the begining. My life is one big ball of organized chaos! I am a wife to a great man who loves me unconditionally. He has been my best friend since high school and one of the few people who have seen every side of me. He's supported me at my worst times, and I am forever greatful for him.
I have the most amazing children. 1 boy and 1 girl. They are my heart and soul, my reason for living. The reason I strive to be better everyday. My son is 9 and my oldest. He has the best smile. He is so creative and full of life. He has the most adventurous spirit. He has an incredible passion for all things on wheels. With that said, we have already been through two casts and broken teeth! It has NOT slowed him down in the slightest! My beautiful Ella Rose! My 5 year old who is destined to rule the world one day. Sassy, smart, and beautiful. She has it all. She definetly marches to the beat of her own drum. She keeps me on my toes and I love her for it!
My family is super close. We do everything together and I mean EVERYTHING! We are probalby the only family that has 25+ people at one of the kids little league games. Everything we do , is together. They are the best support system and cheerleaders. They are the people who you know , no matter what the situation is, good or bad, will be there. We celebrate A LOT! Birthdays, graduations, performances, football games, you name it! There is always a reason for us to be together and we take full advantage of every situation.
I have been blessed with an amazing opportunity to own my own company. For the past 3 years, we have been nothihgn but successful. We have shown growth and stability and things are looking good! This has come with blood, sweat and tears. It consumes my day from the minute my eyes open, to the minute I go to bed at night. My brain is constantly thinking of what the next steps need to be. Some days it is so rewarding, while others have me thinking why the HELL did I get myself into this. I really do like what I do, but I think this is my biggest Life challnage at the moment. I feel like I have the wait of the world on my shoulders. I am responsible for people's livelyhood and I don't want to screw that up.
With all of the above being said, you would think I have it all together. A loving husband, great kids, and a great job that allows me the freedom of being my own boss. The truth is, I feel like I am being pulled in a 1000 different directions and there are just not enough hours in the day. I am constantly on the run and everybody, and everything needs my time and attention. So how is it my greatest blessings in life, are also my biggest challanges. Here is where my propblem begins.
I find myself staying up super late at night so that I can just get a few minutes to myself. To watch tv, read a book, or simply just fold laundry, without being interuppted. This is where my bad habits begin. I stay up late, which causes me not to want to get up in the morning. THerefore I am not leaving myself enough time, for a proper breakfast and my day starts rushed! I then work thorugh my lunch. I will either eat fast food or not eat at all, which leaves m completely unsatified and sluggish. It is true, that an unhelathy body = unhealthy mind. I am constantly tired, frusterated, stressed, and in real physical pain. I handled stress with eating. I have gained close to 40 lbs this year and I can feel it in every aspect of my life.
It's time to change. So how do you change? THere won't be more hours in the day . The husband and kids still need my attention. The family will need for us to be around? Work stress is not going to go away? This is not going to be easy. Something is going to have to give...