June 25, 2017

I feel like I have always struggles with weight.  Even when I was young I was heavy.  I remember having to weigh in for a tug of war game in the 5th grade and I weighed 110lbs.  That was about 20 pounds more than most of the boys and 30+ pounds more than most of the girls, I was tall but not that tall.  In the 6th grade I had a bit of a growth spurt and was rather thin for the next few years.  I was very active playing national tennis and it was easy to keep the weight off but I still struggled.  My parents had me on different diets throughout my life.  My mom, dad and sister are all of average weight and stilla are, my dad even struggles to keep weight on.  WHAT?!?  Never did that ever happen to me.  Around the age of 22 I went on the Optifast diet and lost a lot of weight.  I felt and looked great!  Then I started dating, got engaged and the weight slowly started to creap back on.  I remember someone saying "you could have gotten him when you were fat"  seriously.  Why is everyone so judgemental?  So off my fiance and I went to a new weight doctor, he gave us b12 shots and some kind of pill to take during the week,  we were both sucessful and lost weight or our wedding. Then our daughter came & so did the weight for the both of us.  We worked to get if off and then I was preganant with our son, again more weight.  Since then we have both gained 100+ pounds and have yo-yoed for the past 20 years.  This is it, I need to get healthy.  I have high blood pressure and diabetes.  I also have hyperhydrosis (extreme sweating) I have dealt with this my entire life whether I was heavy or not.  I use to sweat under my arms, so badly I had to have pads sewn into my prom dresses, college formal dresses and my wedding dress.  Now I do not sweat under my arms as much but I do sweat everywhere else, especially my head.  My face always looks lik I am about to have a stroke or pass out.  Sweat just rolls down my face and my hair is always soaking wet.  It so embarrasing...I am hoping that by losing some of this weight it will help with my hyperhydrosis, BP and diabetes.  Fingers crossed this goes well.  I need to change my lifestyle and the future.