I know thats a typical question people often ask when wanting to loose weight/make healthier choices. Mine, I'm sad to say are endless...so here it goes (mostly doing this to remind myself when feeling discouraged).
*all the clothes that I love and cant get into
*that stressed out feeling i get EVERY time i have to get dressed and ready. Im serious I have an iwatch and after trying on 2 new pair of 'os stretch pants' my heartrate posted at 102...how sad is that??
*not wanting to leave my house
*that embarassment I get when I havent seen someone in an while and just know that they are thinking to themselves how large i've gotten
*my self esteem
*my girls
* my husband (he loves me no matter what size as he's seen me in LOTS of different sizes, but still want to feel and look good for him)
*feeling so umcomfortable when having to sit down and my muffin top is just hanging out there
*not having a winter coat that fits
*always trying to cover up with baggy clothes and in the end only make me look bigger, but for whatever reason i feel better in cause it hides the belly rolls
*my arms and the jiggle
*my round face
*chub rub of my thighs
*due to the chub rub my pants get super pilly and thin in that area
* my wedding ring to fit again
*fitting in chairs without having to sqush in them and having my thighs hang over or do the shimmy dance to get in and out of them
*the fear I get when soembody like my hubs or mother in law (dont ask) does my laundry and terrified they put stuff of mine in the dryer....all my stuff is tight, and i cant afford for it to get any tighter :(
*my undergarments....serioulsy you know you've gotten big when your underwear dont even cover your plumbers crack anymore
*the boob butt, you know what i'm talking about, when your boobs spill out the top of your bra
*spends money on stuff to make me feel better/more attractive when really i just need to eat/drink less and move more
*feeling winded from going up and down stairs a few times
*that fear i get when soembody hugs me and can feel my back fat, and better yet my spanks
*having to wear spanks
*finding clothes that i think flatter my body, vs. wearing clothes i like and are in fashion
*life ins. renewal and fearing it will go up due to my weight/BMI
*being heavier then my hubs
*not wanting to shop in the plus size department
seriously, the list could go on and on and as my day goes on i find more of the 'whys'
I kow that I am beautiful and perfect in Gods eyes and he created me how he wanted me, but I do believe he would want me to be happy, helathy and confident so I trust he is with me and will help me through this weight loss journey.