I have been at goal weight before and I love it.  When I am skinny, I love the way I feel when I wear tight jeans.  I don't worry about showing "back fat" if I have a tshirt slip-up.  I spend more time making my hair look nice, because I am not afraid of the mirror.  I am more confident, more outgoing.  When I am skinny, I feel like more of a flirt, I sing the latest pop songs at the top of my lungs in the car.  I want to go out dancing.  I smile at people more.

I know it is not about being skinny.  It's about being healthy and being confident.  But I can't help but crave that feeling of being super trim.  Don't get me wrong, I don't venture into unhealty BMI category.  I know what that threshold is, and I don't cross it.  But I like my BMI low, right at 20.  It's when I feel good, feel alive. 

I like that the focus of the comments I see here is to be healthy, to be strong, to be good your body.  And that is a message I need to hear.  Because my internal message says, "be skinny." 

Does anyone else feel this way?