Ever since I was about 4 years old I've been overweight. One summer I was left with my uncle(teenage) and he would prepare sandwiches in addition to chips, oatmeal crime pies, raisin cakes, and zebra cakes for our lunch. That summer I blew up like a balloon as my grandmother would say. It was always said to me that as I got older and taller that the weight would fall off. Well I'm 25 now and at 328 I believe I can say that weight is still here. I've never been the type to just sit around and eat eat eat, although I can and when boredom strikes and chips are in the house they become the enemy. I've tried to lose weight several times before and I have lost weight but never more than 15-20 lbs. Many people on my grandfather's side of the family are overweight so I'm sure being overweight in in my gene pool, but I also know that just because it is doesn't nece mean that I have to be overweight. Some of my fears are losing the weight which will come with loose skin and I won't be able to afford the skin removal surgery due to student loans and never being okay with my body. I'm already extremely unfortable with my body and I'm certain the skin will increase the uncomfort. Many prob say well you can cross that bridge when you get to it or better lose skin with better health right? I don't want to live the remainder of my life overweight and unhealthy. Being overweight definitely plays a toll on my confidence and self esteem. For the most part I'd like to believe that I'm a pretty confident woman that knows her self worth and sort of who she is lol. But there is that little part (the weight) that sometimes makes me feel like I don't deserve something, or make me think that guys that try to talk to me or flirt couldn't possibly really like me because I'm overweight. In a nutshell being extremely overweight sucks and I want to do something about it but it's not easy by a long shot. Most recently I joined a crossfit gym that I saw Francy and Jeff go to. I like it because over time you will become stronger and build endurance. Also because the gym is small and the classes aren't large so you get to know everyone and it will hold you accountable because people will notice when you don't attend. The added bonus is that during the w.o.d. My peers and trainer/coaches will encourage me and push me to do my best.