having the time pass you by while your husband is deployed can be such a hard and emotional battle i promised my self when he left that i would workout and find new hobbies ,wich lets face it a mother of three and a husband always gone ..it couldnt hurt ..but i did the total oppisite i felt so alone and burried myself in the house with the kids doing homework and normal hous work ..it was def my first time in many deployments not being active  it def got the best of  me by far ..

but luckily enough i got a visit right at xmas time from the hubs himself it def did this family some good and def got me back on track  i read chris's books readi hedis blogs and youtubes and it was insperational espically if you ever watch extreme weightloss with the . ok by now you should all know i suck at writing and sticking to the point or even making apoint for that matter  but without saying i have 4 more months till i get to hold my husband for hs next visit home and id love if i could for once be the girl he should have married then the one he did ive only been big since right before my husband i got together and id like to look in the mirror and see the person i know is really there not the one im looking t right now even though im loving her a lil more each day i bulid my self up .