I watch Extreme Weight Loss every week, and I feel like I could relate to everyone story. I also admire not only the physical transformation but the emotional and mental transformation is what truly impresses me. I am the cliche of a young teenage pregnancy where both parents marriedfor all the wrong reasons. As normal the marriage collapsed. I lost the chance of a relationship with my father and father's side. I was lucky enough to get another chance with my step dad who adopted my brother and I. He did not love me like a dad should. Again the marriage collapsed due to conflicting views on being empty nesters. So I was a mess teenage sand early adult life. All I knew is that men always leaved me and I never had control. And it hurt. Dealing with the hurt was eating and making jokes about myself. I was never the girl that got the guy. I was the wing man. Guys loved my personality on the phone but changed their opinion when they meet me. First setup was great on the phone at age 15 but when I met him for the first time he literally ran out saying he had to go to the bathroom and he left me aloe.I never let anyone hurt me after that. I made fun of myself before anyone else could. As an adult I worked to support myself and gained more weight. I felt alone because the only male that loved me was my brother since he came home from the hospital. After he graduated highschool he left for the air force. I felt truly alone so I eat and watched TV for an escape. As I got bigger my brother became distant. So when he visited for Christmas, I asked hi to help e load my car because I had several trips. He told my aunt I needed the excerise and his wife agreed. I did not know this right away but when I found out I was devastated because my brother who was only male that I thought loved me was ashamed of me.I lost 60 lb five years and now I am stuck at 230 to 235. I went to the doctor and realized that I have an hormonal condition that prevents me losing weight and affects fertility.
My sister in law and brother are active and I feel like my brother and I can't have a relationship because they believe I am lazy and fat and don't respect me. It still hurts me but I can't do anything. I want my brother to love me and not be ashamed.
I have faced my daddy's issues ad relationship issueshead on.I am lucky to find my sole mate and getting married.
I try to move from being rejected from my brother and his family.some daysarebetterandother days not so well.
But I try
Jayme
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