Over the course of the last three, four years, I have been dieting and then falling off the wagon. I never lose more than ten pounds and it comes back instantly. I've gained 40 pounds in the last five years, going from 125 pounds to 165 at my top weight. I'm also offically overweight. Yay. I've also been suffering from depression and fatigue. Last month, I was diagnosied with hypothyrodism. Turns out that my weight, mood, and energy levels are at least in part due to the fact that I've been sick.
There is this Riot Grrl motto: riots, not diets. I'm not interested in making my body look sexy or counting calories as an excersize in self-denial. No, this is about me reclaiming my health and saying fuck you to the years of shit my broken thyroid (and the low self-esteem caused by it that led me to say that it had to be my fault and not go to the doctor and fix it) put me through. I'm comitting 100% to standing up for myself and my health. So I won a DietBet and put all my winnings into another two games. I'm in three now and waiting for another to verfiy to see if I have enough winnings to invest in yet another. My goal is simply to grow strong by feeding myself healthy food and working out in ways that are fun and rewarding.
I'm not being crazy articulate, but this is where I am today.