Alright, I'm here, I'm feeling the excitement and I'm ready to tackle this head on....what? How many times have a tried losing this weight?  A couple, few dozen times......now, I'm scared...what if I fail..again?

A few years ago, I did lose weight and it felt great.  I looked great, was active and lost that weight.  Did I change my activity level..yes, I hit the activity...hard.  Did I change my mental game...yes!  I beleived in myself...did I change my eating habits?  NO.  What I did was to diet to lose weight and I did it.  Then I continued to eat as I always did and I gained the weight back....slowly but to the point I gained it all back and a little more.

I've tried to lose it the past year with no sucess but upon taking time to reflect and be kind to myself, I realized a few things.

1. I must be kind to myself.  I'm going to mess up, make mistakes and that's why I love myself...I'm not perfect..I'm human...I'm kind, I'm compassionate, I'm funny, I'm energetic, I'm positive, I'm mischievious, I can't spell...lol..but I'm not going to perfect on this weight loss journey and that's ok.  I'll just keep going regardless of that.

2. I want this.  I like being active...not an issue for me but eating healthy, yes, this is an issue for me and I'm not settling anymore.  I want the good stuff, the healthy stuff, the good food that fuels my body and makes me strong.

3. Be prepared...the scouts were onto something with this motto.  I can want to eat healthy, I can picture what it looks like but I need to act and make it so, in the words of Jean Luc Picard.  I live a hectic life and I have choices.  I can invest in getting veggies and meal options prepped for the week or I can pick up take out on my way home and you know what, there's no way in hell I'm picking up take out on my way home cause hard to beleive, but I didn't lose any weight by eating a lot of take out.  I hope you can sense my sarcasm with the last comment.  Recently, I started chopping veggies for the week, baking healthy muffins to grab and go in the morning, planning my meals and yes it is hard with everything else on the go but it will pay off for me.

4. Lastly, I don't want to just lose weight.  I want to change my life and have a healthy lifestyle and I'm going to do it.

"Success is liking yourself, liking what you do and liking how you do it" ~ Maya Angelo