I am 24 years old and 400lbs. I spend most of my time working, A. because I love it, and B. because my family lives pretty far away. As a young female leader in a growing company, I am constantly battling a lot of emotions, both good and bad. Being able to take control of my health was something that I, and those around me, knew was a challenge. I am blessed enough that I work for a fantstic company and with a direct leader of mine that is motivating both spiritually and physically. I've learned from one of my leaders that anything worth doing has to be done with a purpose. People don't just change, people don't just become someone great- we are constantly evolving. I feel like I stopped evolving about 5 years ago. I had just moved to a new city to finish college, I was in a position at my job (same job I'm at now, but about 3 positions lower than I am now) that I felt wasn't going anywhere, and I was single. Being single in your 20's is probably one of the 'worst' things to happen in our modern society. Sure, I had dated a few good men, a few not so good men, but I knew one thing always held me back; my weight.
Now, the men I dated didn't have a problem with my weight (or that I know of), but I did. It was always something I felt held me back. Our adventures as a couple turned into my insecurities. Want to go on a trip to Florida? In my mind I thought, "will I fit in the plane seats?", roller coaster rides are out the window, long walks on the beach are ALSO out the window considering I'd probably have an asthma attack about 1/2 way through our walk.. (this is probably an exaggeration lol). I do feel comfortable in my body, but as any WOMAN, regardless of size, insecurities have their way of sneaking up on you. Being TIRED, literally exhausted, of treating my body like it was unimportant was the breaking point for me. Here are my main reasons for losing weight:
1. To serve God in the way I was designed; I need a body that will sustain me me through my life and through my journeys
2. To fall in love with myself just as God has- to see myself worthy of BETTER things in life
3. To set a good example for my family- more specifically my young nieces
I started this journey at the beginning of February. I was tired of making excuses for myself, I was tried of feeling tired, annoyed, and overwhemled constantly. I decided that I was going to do what I tell my teams to do "Whenever you complain, you must make a plan." So I took my advice and did it.
Here's to falling in love with myself this February- This journey will be epic.
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