My newest mantra.

If I do what I did, I will get what I got!!!!

In the past I have done 1 month diet bets and I push myself for a month to lose the weight, and I keep saying to myself, when I win the money back, I can what I want. And I have done that many, many times. And I now know that for me, its very unhealthy because I will push myself to win.

In this 6 month challenge, it is different. Its slow enough and long enough to createa a space for true change.

And I am doing what I did, because most of it does work. And I am upping my choices to allow for change!!!!

I want to share my successes from yesterday. No one in my family wants to hear them, so you are my audience, cuz I gotta share!!!

Yesterday was Saturday and while we were out adn about during the day, I was encountered with 2 challenges where I usually go one way, and this time, I went a better way.

We stopped at Mc Donalds for a break, this isn't in the city McD. This was on the highway in the middle of nowhere, with no other option. I was a bit hungry, but not really. ( I started writing fluidly, and then I am making changes wondering if everyone will understand, and that isn't helping my need to share. I want to apologize if some of my story isn't clear, but I am writing here to share and to also celebrate for myself),
So i decided to stick to coffee, which I love. And my family got some food and some treats. Fries and ice cream...

My way is to not order, but then have some fries, adn by some, I honestly don't know how many. This time I said, I will have 5, and I did. I tried the different sauces that we got with the meal and then I stopped. And instead of internally judging my family for the food they were eating, I enjoyed and focused on being together.

WItht he ice cream I always get a big lick. But Ive noticed taht that behavior doens't serve me for it makes me want to eat other sweet snacks, and leaves me wanting more. THis time, I didn't even have one lick. SUPER PROUD!!!!


Later when no one was hungry, I realized I was, and I usually just grab a snack in the car while we are going from place to place, instead, this time, we stopped at a mini market, adn got 2 heads of romaine lettuce and some delicious roastbeef slices, which I love, adn baby cucumbers, and made for myself wraps with the lettuce and meat and it was a true delight.

I know that if I do what I did, I will get what I got.

Time to put in that work! D3 Fam!

Your body is your worst enemy....I was up 7 lbs from last Wednesday's weigh in, and I can honestly say I only had 1 cheat ... with a bag of chips. This is nothing new for me . I have seen being up 5 pounds over night...then the next day be back down...I think my goal this month , is to only jump on the scale once a week, instead of every day...its too discouraging .

Did not win last challenge so feeling a bit nervous. I’m exercising and starving but stuck in a rut. Gonna keep trying!

Okay, I am ready for this round! I have had so much stress from things outside of my control, but yet being in the middle of it all. I lost myself along the way and honestly got to a not so good place. I see my Doctor next week and will probably ask for medication again for depression as I have really been struggling.

The past week I have been doing much better, tracking my food, on my 3rd day of IF and feeling good. And finally pushed past the mental mountain I create and did a 30 min workout. I felt so much better afterwards, so I need to consciously remind myself how good I felt afterwards and if I can just get past my mental hurdle to get to the mat and press play, that it's so much better for me.

I recently joined Weight Watchers to try and help keep accountable, but haven't gone to a meeting yet... and the points do confuse me a bit.... but I am tracking there, then a friend asked me to track in My Fitness Pal so we can keep eachother accountable, so tracking app #2 haha and if that's no enough, I subscribed to the Simple app for the Intermittent Fasting, so I track there as well. Obviously tracking in 3 places isn't ideal, and I will consolidate into one once I decide what is working for me. I have paid for WW and Simple so I will use for now :)

My goal is to try and find healthy meals ideas and try to prepare things like baked Oatmeal muffins, healthy muffins, etc. And to try to get in min 3 workouts a week and try to get steps in.

If you are on WW and have recipes to share. Please feel free to tag me.

We are all here for different reasons. I lost my husband to cancer 2 years ago and then my mom 9 months later. Food has become a source of comfort, especially in the evenings when the quietness and emptiness are the strongest. I've put on 40lbs. and feel horrible. I'm here to hopefully make changes in my relationship with food and begin to be happy with me again:)