Sammy

I want to be healthy and BPPV and depression meds destroyed my weight loss. I gained 40lbs over the winter and am now ready to shed it.

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Favorite Health Food: Hot sauce!

Favorite Sinful Food: chocolate cheesecake

My Preferred Method of Exercise: paddle board

My Approach to Weight Loss: Eat healthier, exercise more!

My Weight Loss Program: I don't follow a program

My Diet Plan: Meal prep, higher protein, lower carb

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Sammy

06/12/2022 8:08AM in The DietBet Kickstarter - $500 Pot Bonus
My mom rushed into my house the day before yesterday and I was making cinnamon rolls from scratch...she told me my biological father was in an accident and it wasn't good. A few hours later, someone told me he didn't make it.

And now I'm numb. I don't care about this dietbet. I don't care about food. I dont not care...I just don't feel anything except total confusion and pain.

He was parked on the side of the road with his motorcycle. He was a good driver. And a transport truck hit his bike and it hit him.

We weren't close - he wasn't a good father - he wasn't even a father figure really - but he shouldn't have gone like that. And I am hurting. Everything tastes like dirt. Coffee and water are in my hands just so I have something to do. But what's the rule for being the child of someone who was broken and losing them like this?

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Referee Colleen K.

Sammy, I am so very sorry for your loss. That is such a tragedy, and my heart goes out to you. If you'd rather focus on your mental well-being right now, I kindly suggest contacting support@waybetter.com. If you explain, they will try to find a solution for you if you do not want to continue the game. My thoughts are with you!

Sammy

Thank you all for your kind words and advice. Today was the funeral - and we all had a lot of laughs and a lot of tears...but so many laughs.

I've been numb - can't say I have eaten much but someone kept a water glass filled. My husband realized espresso milkshakes from a local store were a safe way to get me to ingest something when I couldn't handle eating. It's all still kinda hazy as far as what happened but I've processed some things.

I'm not grieving memories of this 'good guy' but don't get me wrong, he was a good person. To others, he was amazing. The good times I have with him are good. But to me, he abandoned me and my mom when she said she was pregnant and didn't address it so it was a broken relationship.

But he also has been making amends for the last year or two. He worked hard to reconnect with people he had hurt and in the last few months, reached out to my parents to make amends. He was trying to find a way to reach out to me but also respected me enough to keep boundaries I had to place on our relationship.

He wasn't perfect...but he was a good man who worked with what he had been given and he learned to be a good man and that's enough.

I haven't left the game because honestly, it was too much to even try. Thank you for giving me permission to walk away - I needed to not focus on this for a bit. I may not stick around to comment much but I'm rooting for all of you. Maybe this months a bust for me - I don't know but I do know I'm glad to have had a safe spot to say 'but he wasn't a great dad to me..." And not hurt someone by saying it.

If you made it to the end of this rambling, sappy post...thank you. This was hard. You made it less hard.