Today I am preparing to start believing in myself again. I've had 3 significant weight loss journey's (35+ lbs) in my life and ready to start making some changes to improve my life and health. I'm tired. Tired of feeling tired, of beating myself up, tired of not only disliking, but hating, what I see in the mirror. I'm tired of constantly comparing myself to others, feeling not good enough, remembering the words "You'd be so pretty if you'd just lose weight", writing my "pretty plan" 1. Dry toast 2. Fruit 3. Water...my breakfast plan when I was about 9 years old! Seriously?! I've struggled. I've cried. I've held myself back. I'm tired. I am good enough! I am pretty. I am a good person. I have a caring, loving heart that NO ONE can take away from me. I've grown and I've listened. I listened as my pastor said on Sunday to "Flip the Script", change your story, and this is what I'm going to do. I have a lot that needs to change and I have a lot I'm really proud of. Here's what I know:
1 I've never written a blog in my life
2 I've accepted that I must have accountability and validation to help me succeed--that's part of being me.
3 I have a lot to live for--I've never really lived for me. I'm important. I need to live for me so I will be a better wife, mom,daughter, friend, sister, leader, person!
4 I've overcome a lot. I'm thankful to have my life, it isn't a given that we see tomorrow.
5 I have to fight for myself, stop making excuses, and be a better, healthier me!
Today I will weigh in, then I will begin to take baby steps. I start reclaiming my life now, right now. I'm flipping the script! I'm going to compliment myself daily about something and celebrate myself for a change! This journey will be ongoing, no stopping point in sight, I can do this. I am good enough. I matter. I'm thankful.