Not sure how to start this except to say that I suppose we're all here for the same reason so I'm hoping someone will read this and have good advice on how to make my brain work with me instead of against me. 

I've been trying to lose weight for pretty much my entire life, although I have rarely taken it seriously, spoken to people about it or made any real progress. Last summer I took part in a few Diet Bets in a bid to get serious about it. I only won one of them but I noticed that I did continue to lose weight in the others even though I didn't get to 4%. All in all I lost about 30lbs. Since then my weight has stayed the same and I have been unable to motivate myself to stop eating. 

I figured I'd try diet bet again since it did work last time but basically I am having real difficulty saying no to food. I love food. It's my favourite thing in the whole world. I feel unhappy when I am not full (or eating) and I think about food constantly.

I am  trying to find a new job and feel like the confidence of losing weight would really help with that (can't help but feel being fat in an interview gives the worst first impression ever). My partner really wants me to lose weight because we want to start a family eventually and we both want to be healthy and active. We also both want me to be able to buy nice clothes and fit comfortably into airplane seats, etc. But we do spend a lot of time talking about, planning, cooking and eating food at home, or going out to eat. We kinda aren't sure what to do with ourselves that doesn't involve eating? (or spending money, another problem!)

I know how to lose weight - the concept is simple. Burn more calories than you are taking in, and I do work out semi-regularly and get 10,000 steps per day on average. The problem is the delicious food that is everywhere (my work provides free lunch and there is always Nutella and bread around :() and my inability to work towards a more important goal than being full of chocolate or bread or fries in that moment. 

Other things that are problematic for me - I have PCOS so all my fat is centred around my belly, making my progress depressing as all my weight comes off my legs and makes my belly looks even more disproportionate. 

Any words of advice on how to be strict with myself would be most welcome.