Well who woulda thought that if you watched what you eat... and add a little excerise, the scale would go the OTHER way.. lol. haha. In all seriousness, weight loss has been a struggle of mine for as long as I can remember. I was the little fat kid in elementary and the thick girl in middle school, then became the nerdy chunky girl in high school... I clingged on to the first guy that showed me any kind of attention, and got pregnant at 16.. why is all of this revelent, because my self esteem was the size of a peanut and i feel my whole life was altered ::for a lack of better word:: because of my weight. I always dreamed of being the popular girl in high school, and becoming that confident smart girl in college, but it didn't turn out that way.... there i was.. pregnant. married... and had a second child coming at 22.... with same man- I don't regret my children.. I love them to death and I happen to be the young mom when I go to my teen son's school.
Around 2009, my oldest kids turned 8 and 4.. i lost about 70 lbs... I was recently divorced from their father.. and lost a ton of weight ::the wrong way, of course:: but-- my confidence level was THROUGH the roof.... and I had fun! all those things I missed growing up-- were happening... then I met my now husband.. ended up pregnant again.. and slowly.. have gotten to .... this... 251.... (well now 248.6) again. and even more than before.
My whole world revolves around my 3 kiddos, who are now 16, 12, and 5..... I work a full time job ( so does my husband) and I am a complusive NEAT FREAK, meaning, when my time isn't devoted to my children... it's devoted to cooking, cleaning, laundry, sweeping, and moping, yard work, feeding our 2 doggies, grooming them, ect.. the list goes on and on... working out SHOULD be a priority. It's just a bit difficult for me. . . but- i'm willing to change all that.. better so-- I Will Change All That... that is all.