Well, this is the first day of weigh-in, as well as the first day of trying carb-cycling. So far, I feel good and energized, but we'll see how it goes. I feel like I have been dieting my whole life. I've been dieting most of my life. I'm trying to do a little self-discovery, figuring out the points in my life that has served as a catalyst for this huge weight gain.

I have so much to be grateful for. My husband is one of them. He loves me unconditionally and fell in love with me while I was still heavy. I have two beautiful daughters. One is four, and one is five months. They are amazing. I am in my last year of school before I graduate with my Bachelor's degree in Organizational Leadership. From there, I plan to go into the Master's program with my school and recieve a degree in Marriage and Family Therapy. I have so many goals, yet I am so fearful of the future because, despite all my blessings, I have never felt like I was good enough.

Alas, as I have learned from watching Extreme Weight Loss, a weight loss journey is not complete without facing your fears, confronting your obstacles, and letting go of your past. Therefore, I have decided to look into my past. How far does this self-esteem issue go?

This is all I will write for today. I wasn't sure about blogging, but I already feel better about my future by doing this. Despite my fears, I think, at least today, the future looks good and bright!