I have been amazed at the will power I have had since signing up for dietbet. When I first recieved the email about it my immediate thought was was gambling is bad I can not do that. Then I spoke to my parents about it. It was crazy my mother who doesn't even do anything online at all (she's old school) said let make a bet whoever loses 25 pounds first has to pay the other 50.00. I said that is so weird I have been thinking about doing this diet bet thing online. I told my parents and they said that's not gambling as a matter of fact it shows how it is competely in your control and you can do it! So I signed up right away. I am really excited about getting started. Although I do find myself having CONSTANT thoughts about how HUGE my stomach is or how flabby my arms I also think about all the great people going on this journey with me and how supportive they all are. I already know Michelle and Rachel J from the buff mother forums. I think my main issue is that for some reason I have labled myself as someone who is just this loser who is a fatty and always will be. Those thoughts get in my way all the time. Last night it really hit me a friend of mine and I had an emergency with on of her teenagers we were out very late. At 1 am we stopped at McDonalds and I got 4 chicken nuggets and a large fry which I ate half of. Right away almost instantly I thought well that's it It's over I am a failure, why did I think I could do this, and on and on the thoughts went until I said NO! I logged the calories in MFP and saw that it would not make me gain any weight and that I COULD get right back on track. I remembered what Michelle said a long time ago about replacing a negative with a positive and had a HUGE glass of water. And today when my stomach looked huge I said that is okay because bye bye tummy you are going away. I just have to be patient give it time and stop being mean to myself. I had a great day calories wise today and yesterday and also had a ton of veggies, fruit fish and water.