I am ready to make a change.  The last 4 years have been though but that is no excuse.  In 2011, I was down 40 pounds, at a healthy weight and stronger than I had been in my entire life.  I felt great.  I swore I would never let myself gain that weight back again.  I knew how hard it had been to take it off.

Well here I am again, with 45 pounds to lose this time. I am in that place that I swore I would never be in again. In a self defeating cycle that just keeps going round and round.  In my experience, i am either mentally prepared and ready to make a change or I am not.  There is no in between for me.  It's all or nothing. 

That is part of what needs to change.  How do I stay in the right frame of mind all the time?  How do I stop defeating myself.  I truely is self defeat.  If I look at a cookie and eat it anyway knowing I have done nothing to make up for the calories, I have defeated myself.

So, I say stop!! Stop sitting on the couch instead of going for a walk.  Stop eating fast food because, well it's fast. Stop! Stop! Stop!

Chris and Heidi, Get Lean in 2016, here I come.