Day 1 has started for my weight loss goal. I am participating in 2 games.
1. Bet Big to Win Big $100
2. The Weekly Kickstarter. $35
Today has been an interesting first day for my journey of eating healthy and staying fit.
First, I woke up 3a a bit startled because I had a dream that Hans was running next to me and encouraging me. In the dream we were working out, like we did before. When I woke up I held in a concoction of emotions. (Hans was a good friend of mine. A mentor, physical trainer, and friend who died last month. I hadn't trained with him for about 1 year. But in the dream we were training together.)
I went back to bed and woke up at 5a, not wanting to miss getting there for the exam. Realized it was 5a and went back to bed then woke up at 7a to get ready for the test.
I have been apathetic with life lately. Sad, but it is the honest truth. Through the loss of a good friend, finding out my mother's cancer has a 60% chance of coming back, and the dating life sucking as usual... I haven't been in a healthy emotional or mental state. But Hans visiting in my dream has given me hope. Yes, you could think that dreams are often just what you think, playing on emotions, feelings, memories from past/present and the possible future. But I like to also think that when you dream about someone that has passed away, it is like they are visiting you. A strange theory, but mine for sure. : )
Let me back up a bit. I have recently been applying to graduate school. Through the application process, I realized I haven't taken the GRE. Work has been crazy and I hadn't paid close enough attention as I should have. I quickly downloaded a superb GRE app. and studied intensely during my first week off. I have been stressing and anxious and may not eating as healthy as I would like. I knew that I should have avoided the ON SALE Christmas reeses' peanut butter cups, but that didn't quite happen. Temptations were not resisted.... This time.
So, this morning, I said to myself, "Just do your best and see what the exam is like... You will get it next time. " I said a prayer before I went into the testing room. I wrote at the top of my paper when I started, 'I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me." I sat through about 4.5 hours of testing and finally completed the exam.
I passed! I reached the goal I needed to be accepted into the program. I felt a burden had been lifted off! Now...........,I just have to get accepted into the university.
After the test,I went to the library and looked at some books, hoping to find some light healthy cooking books and found out that I have a fee. I wasn't able to check the books out and started to pull out of the parking lot. By then it was around2p and was starving! Across the street there was a Pei Wei. Not the best choice, but I had a gift card and my stomach was eating itself. (Next time, I know that I am going out for a long time, I will have to have a snack to leave in the car.)
Finally I arrived home, played a computer game to relax and destress, then took my pup on a walk.
As I reflect I have noticed some choices that I could improve. Such as comfort food eating when I am stressed and/or anxious, eating out, and not making good healthy choices when eating out. But I see some positives too. I was able to get some cardio in today (20 minutes.) Most cases I would have just taken a nap.
My fitness goals for tomorrow :
1. Work out at the gym- Leg day. 45min -1 hour.
2. Walk the dog- 20-40 min.
3. Make healthy meals to eat and stick with them. -----Eat the greens I bought yet refuse to eat that are in the fridge so they don't rot and then I waste money.-----
My personal goals:
1. Clean apartment - complete laundry/office area.
2. Lesson plans - Complete 1 for each of the 3 subjects.
3. Apply for scholarships
I can do this. I can do this. I need to stay focused on the goals that I have,short/long term. I will reach my goal for the DietBet. I won't 'try' to lose the weight and 'try' to eat healthy.... I will.