I was never skinny. Or so I thought... When I was in High School I never thought of myself as 'the skinny girl' Weighing 130lbs at my heaviest, I always thought that I wasnt skinny. Now as I look back, I think how I was oh so wrong lol. I went to college and like a lot of people I not only gained the 'Freshman 15' but I actually gained the Freshman 20! I went from a small town that had no fast food and I only ate whatever my parents decided to have in the house and being fairly active to moving to a town that had fast food around every corner and I got to buy my own groceries (which were not the best of choices)... I wasnt active and ate super poorly!
I hated the weight gain! I was super self conscious and even though people didnt really say anything I knew that they say it. I mean I could clearly tell!! And some people would tell me about how someone had noticed and said something about it, not realize how much it hurt me. But yet I did nothing for the first four years in which I had gained about 40lbs. After fours years I decided to do something but everytime I started a weight loss program, I soon stopped. I would be dedicated for the first month and then fall off the wagon and never get back on. I usually found excuses to not cook or to pick up something quick to eat (usually fast food). I usually have what I like to call an addiction to have to eat something sweet after every meal (except breakfast). Its like its become a habit and my body or should I say mind isnt satified until I eat that something sweet and no I dont mean an apple lol. I have bad eating habits and I dont think of food as an energy source... I guess I think of it as a comfort...
Now I'm married and I hope in a year or two to start a family. But being at the weight I am and to become pregnant I feel that I would be putting not only myself but my baby at risk because I am already so unhealthy. That is the main reason for doing this, to be healthy for babies I hope to be having one day x)