This game doesn't start for another 14 days, but I just wanted to write down how I'm feeling at this point. As of my last weigh in, I was 151.6 lbs. For about a month, I have been working out regularly, monitoring my calories, and generally trying to get in more activity (with the aid of trying to acheive 10,000 daily steps using my FitBit to monitor).
As I begin this DietBet, I'm thinking about my past successes and non-successes. I tried (and completely fell off the wagon for all rounds) on the last Transformer challenge I joined. I just couldn't seem to get the motivation to get going or keep going or really do anything. Just prior to that, I had joined three regular DietBets at the same time and won all three.
I know I can get to my ideal weight off about 130 lbs. because I have done it before. In 2011, I reached 132.5 lbs. on my birthday. The lowest I have weighed since high school I'm guessing. I was so happy, yet looking back on it, I realize I didn't recognize what an accomplishment I had achieved. Since it took so long for me to get there, and my weight fluctuated so much throughout the whole year of 2011, when I finally got to that point I don't think I was giving credit to myself for all the hard work and consistency that I put in. Just a few weeks after that, I gained back about 5 lbs. and then completely stopped tracking exercise or calories and I think I probably just gave up and exercising and eating right because of a minor slip up.
I have always struggled with all or nothing, black and white thinking. This is one of my goals, to break the all or nothing thinking that messes me up when I'm trying to lose weight, or acheive other goals in my life. I need to learn how to bounce back from mistakes and not let them throw me off course or deter what I really want to acheive. I am motivated to win this DietBet in each round, and to not give up this time! I want to win back my money! And I want to get back to the 130s because I felt so much better there, and since I have done it I KNOW I can do it again!
I am also excited about the new blog feature, and I'm hoping this will help me stay accountable and be able to vent some of my struggles to help me avoid giving in to negative behaviors.