Well my first day of March was truly fabulous. I had a great day at work, I reached my monthly income and weight goals. Good times.
So my second day of March hasn't been too much of a difference besides the fact I gained BACK .2 pounds bringing me to a steady 195. I can't say I'm proud, but, I am. I did cheat today, I ate Mickey D's earlier and while I KNOW THATS BAD, it was earlier, and in my logic, that gives my body the entire day plus the gym later, to make up for it if I continue to eat right from here on out like I've been doing. But I'm bound to have slip ups like earlier, and with that, I need to learn to forgive myself so I can keep going. Which I have done.
Today is my day off from work, which I never expected to be a busier, harder one than when I DO work.
I recently got my new fitbit flex, and am in LOVE with it. I have made a mission to get my step goal everyday, and it never occurred to me really until now that, well, I'm pretty inactive besides the gym when I'm off work vs when I'm there running all over the place. I can usually make up a large bulk of my steps at the gym, which is great, but I want my next goal to be being able to reach at least half of that within a day off and away from the gym. I know it's possible, I've done it once, I can do it again.
Drinking water is no longer a chore for me. In fact, I enjoy it. With my app, it makes it more like a game for me more than anything. I want everything in my charts to be green for good and ready to go for the next day. And that goes with everything from excersize, to calorie count, to sleeping well.
I've been asked a few times what my goals here are besides weightloss, and let me just fill you in on that before I hop off of here.
Of course I want to be thin. Slim, beautiful, fit. I've always been a heavier set girl, and now, 21 years old, I'm ready to step away from my past, and be the person I know I can be. I want to see this beauty in me that my boyfriend sees in me. I want the world to see the beauty in me that my boyfriend sees in me. I am not a force to be taken for granted. I am not a person to be underestimated. When I set my heart to something, I do it, and I succeed.
I am doing this to become strong. To become healthy. To wash away every wrong move. Every bit of pain and suffering I've put this body of mine through.
I am determined to make sure nobody can ever put their hands on me again in a way I feel threatened. Scared. Submissive to. I am a woman. I am a brilliant, outstanding, and generous woman who is sick, and tired, of having my good deeds spit back in my face. I refuse to ever be another person's punching bag.
I want to be able to crawl when I cannot run. Lift, when I cannot stand. And run, when I cannot walk.