ALL MY LIFE I HAVE BEEN INSECURE ABOUT MYSELF. NOT JUST MY BODY... BUT MY FACIAL APPEARANCE. NOT JUST MY PERSON... BUT MY CLOTHES. COMING FROM A POOR FAMILY, WE COULD NOT AFFORD BUYING NICE CLOTHES FOR ME GROWING UP. I DID NOT FIT IN WITH KIDS. I FELT MISERABLE. I FELT DISGUSTED WITH THE WAY I LOOKED. I FELT DISGUSTED AND ASHAMED OF WHERE I CAME FROM. AS A CHILD AND TEEN, I WAS ALREADY DEALING WITH DEPRESSION. WHICH OF COURSE, LED TO MY WEIGHT GAIN. CONSTANT BULYING, ENDLESS TEARS... YOU KNOW... THE STORY YOU READ IN BOOKS AND SEE IN MOVIES. ANYWAYS... I STARTED TO LOOSE WEIGHT IN COLLEGE AND BEGAN TO FEEL BETTER ABOUT MYSELF. MY WEIGHT WAS A ROLLER COASTER. I GAIN IT, I LOOSE IT... SAME LOOPS OVER AND OVER. RIGHT NOW I AM AT A WEIRD STAGE IN MY LIFE, BUT I AM TRYING TO STAY POSITIVE. I AM TRYING TO KEEP MY HEAD UP. I HAVENT FELT ATTRACTIVE IN A VERY VERY LONG TIME. NONE OF MY CLOTHES FIT ANYMORE, AND I DO NOT HAVE THE MONEY FOR A NEW WARDROBE. I HOPE I HAVE A SUCCESSFUL OUTCOME AND HOPE EVERYONE ON HERE DOES AS WELL. GOOD LUCK!!