It seems like it was only yesterday that I was saying to myself that this year I would make changes.....well I have made some small changes, I no longer take a bottle of pop to bed in case I get thirsty throughout the night I take a bottle of water with just enough flavoring to give it a taste. I am not eating until I bust....well OK I do once and a while but it is few and far between, I just don't like that overfull, busting at the seams, wondering if I am going to be sick or not feeling. I am determined to make more changes slowly but steadily until I am healthier. And what better time to start but the beginning of the school year. I am going to make small changes to my life style so that they become habit, and if I have a bad meal, day, week I refuse to beat myself up over it I will just pick up where I was before and keep on going. But that said I am not going to deny myself any food. I will allow myself a treat once and a while, but I will be sensible about it. 

I am realizing now that these small changes are what is going to help me get to where I want to be. I know that I am still a work in progress. To help me learn to love myself as I am I have started making a list of the things I like about me now. The things I am proud is helping me to realize that I am not as bad as I sometimes think. I know that I am going to have days where I will hate everything about how I look, but on those days I will look at my list to remind myself of the good things about me I am proud of and like. 

I know I still have a long road ahead of me, but I know that I can make it and that every small change is a change for the better and to take it one day at a time. I am still not sure what triggered my weight gain, and I know that in time and with some soul searching I will figure it out. Once I do I can start to do whatever I need to do to over come it and get me to a better place.