Being good now doesn't mean you can be bad later...

For the early part of week 2 I was on fire...  ON FIRE I TELL YOU!  Even though I was out of town and wasn't getting as much daily activity as I would normally get I was still very good about my eating and was losing weight consistently. It was easy though.  I had packed breakfast and lunch for the week and for the first several days the friend I had been staying with cooked healthy delicious meals.

 

Shoulder Angel: Awesome job!  Look at you kicking butt!  Not letting anything stop you from acheiving your goals!

 

Then I started eating out more, making increasingly poor choices.  Still I was generally staying within my calorie goal (though eating back ALL my exercise calories) and I wasn't gaining weight.  I stopped losing weight but I was already a few lbs below my Jan goal.  

 

Shoulder Demon: See?  You're having all that delicious food and STILL kicking ass!  No harm, no foul right?  And damn does it taste good.

 

I got comfortable.  A little too comfortable and this came to a breaking point on Friday - the day I started the 5 hour drive back home after working a full day.  The GPS took me through the city, which was probably faster, but there were several incidences where I almost got into an accident because of idiot drivers.  I had planned to get the same fast food option for dinner than I'd gotten for lunch on my drive down: a 300 cal breakfast sandwich with lots of protein.  Not a slam dunk diet wise, but far better than 90% of my options.  

I left with good intentions, but ended up falling short. Once I finally got through the evening traffic and onto the highway I was hungry and exausted and craving something different than what I'd eaten all week.  Also I knew there was one thing I really missed from NC that I just couldn't get at home, and this was my last chance for a while: Cookout.  So when I saw the sign for the next exit I stopped and got a chicken strips tray with onion rings, slaw and a mint oreo shake.  To be honest, that's a fairly healthy option.  Slaw is (sort of) a vegetable, the onion ring portions are small, and the chicken strips equally (if not potentially less) sinful as the big double burger.  The shake...  well it's a big-ass milkshake with a generous helping of mint syrup and crushed oreos...  I have no pretenses about how bad it is, but it's fucking delicious and it's been over a year and a half since I've had one.

 

Shoulder Demon: EAT ALL THE THINGS!  YOU DESERVE IT!!

Shoulder Angel: No! Stop! Don't! You're going to regret this tomorrow!

Shoulder Demon: DOOOO IIIIIIIIIIT!

Shoulder Angel: Oh Jesus, you're going to do it aren't you?  Well at least don't get the big double tray with fries. chicken wrap AND the shake.  That's over a days worth of calories in one 'meal' and it will make you sick if you try to eat it all.  Please?  Pretty please? 

 

Needless to say, when I stepped on the scale the next morning, it was ugly.  I was back up OVER my Jan goal.  I knew a lot was water weight and it would come back off, but it was still demoralizing and I had no one to blame but myself.

 

Shoulder Demon: *derisive laughter*

Shoulder Angel: *face palm*

 

Was it worth it?  The milkshake? yeah probably....  Everything else however, not so much. 

Saturday I was feeling a bit depressed.  I worked out and generally ate well, but I wasn't meticulous about tracking and probably ate more than I should have.  I let DH cook dinner which ended up being a delicious but diet wrecking pasta dish -  Bowtie pasta in a pesto alfredo sauce with spinach, onions and bacon.  

WHY BACON?!?!  I mean it still would have been bad without the bacon but that was just over the top.

But I was really hungry and there wasn't much else easy to eat so I had two servings *sigh*

Sunday and Monday (holiday for me) I really started to get back on track again.  Sunday I cooked and tracked my foods and Monday I did the same AND worked out for an hour (rather than my usual 30 mins).

 

Resolution Roundup

  • Lose (at least) 10% BW in 6 mo - Progress: -3.9%, AKA could have been worse, could have been better
  • Workout (at least) 30 mins 3x/week - DONE!  One was a 45 min yoga class.  No cardio, but it was what I needed that day (had a migraine that morning)
  • Eat at least one serving of fruit/veg with every meal  -I think I've done better with this but definitely not at 100% still.  I still need to set up some sort of tracking system.
  • Savings - SETBACK: I think I will be moving in a few months, and I've had to scale back my savings to start setting aside money for the move.  But if the move happens I will be able to really crank up savings and should be able to make up for it by the end of the year.

Overall, I'm going to say, meh. The first three I could have done better on, the last one actually went backwards (though for a good reason and I can still meet my goal for the year).