It does not surprise me, but it still scares me shitless. I am well on my way during this first week of dietbetting, and having gone all-in and cleaned out my eating completely AND while adding a lot more physical stuff, esp walking, but also trainding exercises (coming from zero that was not too hard), I am really feeling the detoxing proces right now.

As I have shared else-where, I come out of an almost 4 year story with a black mold toxic battle, and the short version is, that though so many of my previous symptoms have gone since doing mold-avoidance, I still have a few major returning ones to face:

My excess fat-weight (50 lbs stored over the 3 years living in a toxic and humid house).

The poisonous mold-mycotoxins that are stored primarily in my fat-cells, that make me so terribly sick every-time my body tries to shed any of it - because they elease into my bloodstream.

The herxheimer reactions I get from detoxing, walking and eating healthier, that almost feels like the worst part of being back into mold: nerve-pain all over, twiching of small muscles (right now my eyes are going crazy), fungal overgrowth in system (like candida and athletes foot) that itches and hurts, soreness, tired (deadly tired), confused and forgetfull, antsy (literally like ants crawl under my skin) and also just overall jumpy, nervous and uncomfortable.

Part of me (the addicted sugar-part of me), just want to go back to numbing the body with sugar and bread and not moving at all, because then my body does not hurt so bad.

I am a professional musician, and two days ago having a choir-rehearsal with 120 people, I snapped my fingers while rehearsing and studying a rhytmical part of the music, and my left long-finger cramped and locked and I had to physically strech it, while continuing to sing.

My joints hurt every step I take, and suddenly nervepain shoots up a leg or out an arm, or my eye-muscles twitch so bad that I almost can't see. 

I need to keep reminding myself, that the steps I am taking right now are the ONLY ones getting me through this process, and that I need to release these toxins and get healthier. I chose brave and persistent, and share the scared and vulnerable.

Thank you for listening.