Well it's been 3 years since I started my first dietbet.  Of course, I never completed any of the games I signed up for.  This time it is different.  I am now over 50 years old.  My doctor started me on a statin last week with a referral for a nutritionist and offered me diet pills.

I like diet pills, they are easy and clean.  No shakes to mix, no "special" frozen or dehydrated meals to purchase or store away.  Diet pills only work part time, as long as you take them.  I just tried Contrave and had a serious mental reaction to it at the 3 week mark.  I really liked the addiction medication part of it, it truly took away that "automatic reaction" or "auto pilot" aspect of bingeing.  I was calm, much more focused and simply was not mentally or emotionally hungry.  In fact, I let my body feel actual physical hunger and I haven't felt that in a long time.  The emotional part of the medication was not a good match for me.  This has made me realize that I am truly addicted to food.  I have gained 10 pounds since January this year and I must simply stop it now if I want to truly start living life again.

I thought of going for low carb, high fat but to be honest the high fat part just freaks me out.  At my weight, should I really be "freaking out" over the percentage of fat in that regimen?  I should be freaked out over my weight overall and the recently added co-morbidities that came along since the beginning of this year.  I never had high blood pressure before.  I was borderline high in the total and "bad" cholesterol range as well.  Now, my blood pressure is not out of control and my lipid panel is a bit lower than last year but high enough that my doctor now wants me on a statin and diet pills.  

This is going to stop.  

While my idea of low carb (simple sugars) is spot on, I will get on the bad wagon and incorporate sound advice from Bob Harper (Skinny Rules)...start tracking everything (something I loved doing before I had this serious weight issue) and also start therapy.  I am not beyond asking for the addiction medication part of Contrave.  This is more than just a "'diet" and "exercise" plan - this is a whole-istic plan to get me back on track.  Back to life.

If you are somebody who, like me, is looking to re-evaluate your entire life, not just "weight loss" feel free to friend me.  It is still one step at a time but sometimes taking those tenative steps with an anonymous friend makes the journey to wellness much easier.