So i've decided to give the keto diet a try but focusing on less meat and more fish/alternative protein sources. 

 

I have about 40lbs to lose. My problem is that i get discouraged when i have a bad day which turns into a bad few days and it just snowballs from there. And of course then there's the guilt, shame, embarassment and the horrible self disparaging remarks like "you should have more will power", "this is why you'll always be fat". Sometimes i amaze myself at the truly horrible things i say and think about myself because of my weight. It's a vicous cycle and i'm tired of it. Absolutely tired and fed up.

So i know this isn't going to be easy but i realize i control what i put in my mouth. No one is forcing the food down my throat. 

 

So fingers crossed that i can lose this weight and get some control.