I really don't now how shake the feeling of guilt when I eat something I know I shouldn't.
I have been somewhat overweight and struggled with my weight since I was a young girl. And right now I seem to be on the right track, I've lost about 15lbs since November. And I finally feel good about myself, I'm in a good place.
Today I had a small piece of cake for my sisters birthday, and I feel GUILTY. Why???? I know one piece of cake wont make me gain 15lbs in one sitting, and I know I wont sit there and eat the entire cake either.
So why do I feel so guilty about one mesily peice of cake.
I used to be a closet eater (did I just make up a term, maybe). But I used to sneak up to the kitchen grab food and quickly go down to my room to eat it, hiding praying no one would catch me. I was ashamed but yet still couldnt seem to control myself.
I think now, looking back this would have been my rock bottom. Ontop of seeing unflattering photos of myself. But I realized, why am I hiding what I am eating? Its as if food had some sort of power over me. It controlled my life.
But now, I am the one in control. Food doesn't have the same power it once did. Now it merely powers me energy wise.
I guess I finally invested in myself. Stopped giving food power over me, and gave myself that power.
It was liberating.
And now, I am seeing results. I still have 30ish lbs to lose (if I decide to go to that number dictated as 'healthy') but I am happy and proud.
So guilt be gone. I enjoyed a piece of cake, worked out and now I'll move on to tomorrow.
** See the definition of guilt... eating cake isn't a crime. And it wasn't wrong either. Enjoy life and Cake!**
