I hate my body.  My stomach is so big. I look more than a few months pregnant, but I don't think anyone woudl suspect I'm pregnant because everything else is also so big.  my arms, my thighs, my but and my 3 chins.  I am so blessed that my husband loves me in spite of my weight, but I want to stand next to him in photos, not behind him so he can hide my belly.

and I'm going on a cruise in 7 weeks and I want to look better than I do today when I meet with Backstreet Boys.  I've only known for 10 months that this meeitng would happen, but I have done nothing to make me better.  what a procrastinator I am.

But now I am doing it!  March 19th is my new beginning!  Let's do it!