Hoping to get the smack in the a$$ I know I need! Have been apathetic about my weight since my divorce last year with a job change and being away from family/friends while working as a traveling first assist in surgery. I have gained at least 10 pounds since I started this job back in October, and I have had enough! I have the beginnings of a 3rd belly roll - NOOOOOOOO!
I have allowed some of my bad habits to creep back - tying emotion and reward to food and treats. Drinking alcohol and snacking because I'm bored or watching TV. Not drinking hardly any water. Eating out as a normal habit, versus a special occasion. Not packing lunch and buying pizza and PB&J sandwiches at the cafeteria - too expensive in many ways!
I have been lonely and stressed to the max, working long erratic shifts in a rural area with not much going on. I am developing stress management skills in the short term such as breathing and counting to ten when I am frustrated/angry at work (happens all the time in surgery), but my day to day stress management is, generally speaking, CARBS. I struggle to find motivation to meal prep when I would rather veg out and watch TV and snack.
I think I am starting to realize that I want to feel better. My feet hurt a lot, my back is stiff and my sciatica is worse than it was. I miss yoga and weight lifting. My pants hurt me and my underwear rolls down on my ass because it's too small, or my low roll sweats because I wear grannypanties and it goes up to my bellybutton. My scrubs are tight in the ass and the other day I RIPPED a seam in the thigh because I stretched too aggressively! I sleep worse and I'm tired all the time!
So, here's to me.
"I deserve good things. I am am entitled to my share of happiness. I refuse to beat myself up. I am an attractive person. I am fun to be with... and I'm going to help people, because I'm good enough, I'm smart enough, and doggone it, people like me." ---Stuart Smalley