Note: I hate how my shorts style unders look like I was squeezed into them. They look too little for my body. Or my legs look like they belong to someone else. ouch. My face says it all.

 

Finished self-modified ZWOW 100 at 10:30am.  I cannot for the life of me get down into a one legged squat and I have tried many times. perhaps because I am 5'9" almost 5'10" I just topple over. (it isn't safe to squat with your knee in front of your toes, so biomechanicallly i cannot figure out how this move is possible).

I also cannot do Divebombers: my right SI joint cracks and I have had pain with this when I play hockey. I could see a doctor, I could see a chiropractor, i could see a PT, but I have no health insurance and that would be very costly.  For now, I'm content on building muscles around it to help stabalize the joint. My grandfather got bone cancer in his 20's so, its definitely something I have to be mindful of and consider.

I sweat a lot, and that was doing the workout at my own pace. not dripping sweat like yesterday.

 

I reached some of my goals from yesterday, I tried to draw but felt uninspired, I tried to play guitar but I was in a funk, I didn't go outside and speak to a stranger, I didn't clean the kitchen...hm, maybe I didn't reach my goals from yesterday.

BAD: I gave into a comfort necessity yesterday at lunch while I was feeling starving and ate two hot dogs without the bun and an entire box of mac and cheese. My meal cost me 1,155 calories! that's almost an entire days worth of food in one sitting. no veggies. wow. AND after calculating that I still went and had a piece of salt water fudge...oh shore.

My other meals were okay. But again, that strange foggy headache. I'm seriously considering I may be pre-diebetic. or diebetic. I have other wishy washy symptoms as well, like blurred vision at times, pins and needles in my toes upon waking, etc. 

GREAT: STILL NO COFFEE!!!! cold turkey so far! I crave it when I am eating fake sugar like fudge, or when I go to the movies at our local theatre, otherwise I despise it.  I have been craving tea again! YESSSS...! and surprisingly, craving water also! because it really makes me feel so good.

 

TODAY's WEIGH IN

Weight: 138.4        Start: 140.2

% fat: 20                       22

 

TODAY's GOALS:

1. make myself laugh (not using facebook or social media sites)

2. go to joann's and use my 25% off coupon to get wanted sewing supplies

3. make quick and easy planned ahead meals that are good for me.