No time like the present to make a conscious change.  I have tried almost everything and up to this point I half heartedly made attempts at "dieting" with an emphasis on "die."  Every time I embarked on a new journey, bought the latest pill, hippest workout video - I lost a piece of myself and my bank account.

Yesterday I was privileged to speak with a friend who simply said "Be accountable." Now accountability is a word I hear often at work - applicable to making sure one is responsible for assigned responsibilities and work product.  But I never thought about it in the context of my health and wellness.  It's easy to sit back and look at others with noticeable issues and pass judgment.  But for me, someone whose issues with food, a lack of motivation, etc. all seem closeted...well accountability is vital.

I have been lying to myself.  And with the lie, I have been expecting my body and those around me to accept the consequences of my lack of accountability.  The lack of energy, the bad meals, the lack of activity because of feeling sluggigh...all my fault and all because I was not accountable.

So today I am making a conscioius effort to be accountable.  Starting with "a" for activity.  I am proud to say I pulled myself out of bed at 4 a.m. and went to the gym.  I had to pep talk myself the entire drive but when I got there, I felt proud.  I tasked myself to do something and I actually did it.  I can't claim complete victory even say that my accountability (or lack thereof) woes are over.  But consciously I am trying to do something about it.