I used to love love love writing when I was a teenager, and I found it very therapeutic to write about the things going on as I grew up.  I am hoping that writing about what's going on now will help me accomplish my goals and get through any roadblocks.

I am starting off with a 4% challenge and a 10% challenge.  I would like to be 248 lbs by February 1st, and 190 lbs by July 7th.

I make plans all the time about how to lose weight.  I do the math repeatedly, sometimes once a week to reassure myself I can do.  It seems the knowledge that I can do it is enough for me, and I don't follow up on the plans I make.

To help combat this, I made lists and charts to keep me on track.

I made one chart for the 1 month challenge, which helps me with the weekly weigh in goals.

I made another for the 6 month challenge.

Both have a goal to lose 2-3 lbs a week.  Which is both healthy, and do-able.  I check in every week with what my goal is, and what my weight is.  This way, I will be able to see very quickly on whether or not I am succeeding, and if I am ahead or falling behind.

I also made a list of my goals.  It varies from taking vitamins every day, to being able to do the Couch to 10 k program.

And finally, I made a list of all the things coming up in the New Year.  My wedding anniversary with my husband, and well as two weddings of people I cherish and are close to me.

I do feel like my weight holds me back in life But I also feel like I can lose the weight.  I feel like it is in my control, and I can succeed if I put my mind to it.

I am also working together with my doctor, to see if there are any medical reasons I am being held back.

Last night I got up at 11:52 pm, just to take my vitamins.  I hope that kind of dedication will carry forward through the New Year.