Lately, I have been going to see friends most nights after work, eating when I can and not always making the best choices. Mainly- I will eat healthy foods but just in out of control portions. I have been working on taking care of myself and making time for myself. The past week I committed to being social on the weekends and saving the week day evenings for healthy meal prep and gym time. I felt so much better at work each morning and found it easier to stick to clean eating.
However, this weekend things got a little bit off kilter. I cooked an intricate dinner for my boyfriend on Valentine's Day. The ingredients from the high calorie/high fat meal were still in my house last night and I wound up bingeing on them when I got home.
Today I am wracked with regret and feeling terribly guilty. I know that my triggers for bingeing are:
1. Being over tired.
2. Not eating enough that day.
3. Keeping unhealthy food in my house.
All 3 of my triggers were in play last night and they resulted in an epic binge. Ughh. I have a formal dinner and dance to attend this coming weekend. I want to feel comfortable and confidant at the event- not self-conscious and wishing I made better choices in the weeks leading up to it.
One binge is not the end of the world (even though it somehow feels that way). I am back on track today and will be at the gym tonight after work. My meals will be prepped which I find immensely helpful. This is going to be a good week. While I still feel the effects of the binge I am not going to let it overwhelm me. I binged, I slipped up but I have not lost the fight.