It was late Sunday night and it happened. I could not find beauty in myself.
I was overcome with all of the " not good enough" messages that filled my mind and overtook my emotions. To say I was blue was an understatement. I simply could not see the forest from the trees.
I had seen this Dietbet on Facebook and thought, " I wonder if I could do that ". And it sat with me for a few days.
Yesterday, I upgraded my gym membership so I can now work out during my lunch and I now have access to a pool, to kettlebells, to more classes and most of all, I now have time to take care of myself.
Today was my first day at my new gym - and it felt terrfic when I returned to work. I am excited about this change. And this afternoon, I was on FB and happened to see the Dietbet again and this time I decided to join. I am worth $30.00 to get encouragement, support, to challenge myself and to be held accountable. And I am worth more than $30.00... taking care of myself is a gift I give both to myself and in turn to others.
I am grateful for that blue night, the tears that fell and my aching heart. The combination helped me to see that I needed to choose a different path, and make a new plan. I may not be perfect for the next month, but I am giving myself the best gift I can.
Here's to all of us who are taking that step on a new path, one day at a time. We are strong alone, but we are stronger together.
xo Rachel