A little about me
It's been a long road...
The picture on the left (pink dress) was my sister's wedding in June of 2015, I felt so uncomfortable. The picture on the (right) green dress was November of 2016, my dad's retirement.
Pink dress I was about 225 lbs, green dress 177ish lbs.
I have tried everything in my journey. After my sister's wedding (pink dress) I felt defeated, I was the most depressed I had ever been. My body ached from the weight. I felt both invisible, and like I stuck out every where I went. It was a horrible way to live.
I decided to go through a medical weight loss program (Kaiser liquid diet). It was the hardest and easiest thing I have ever done. It was a HUGE relief to not have to think about food. Up until close to the end I never felt hungry. My cravings and compulsions were gone. It was the clearest my mind had ever been.
I started the program August of 2015, and completley stopped by March 2016.
My weight bottomed out at 159 in March 2016.
By the summer of 2016 I had gainned 10 pounds (169ish).
By then end of 2016 I was up to the upper 170's (bouncing between 176-180).
My goal was always 140-150, but more importantly to be comfortable in my skin. My problem has always been staying consistent, and binge eating.
I have gainned more weight than I wanted, but I am no where near where I use to be. I am pumped and ready to countinue my journey. I just want to see what I can do if I can stay consistant.
I feel lost. I don't know if I should cut carbs, or watch my macros, or go low calorie. I love working out. I have embraced the 4am wake up call this month. However, I am not really sure what I am doing at the gym (normally treadmil and weight circuit). And I haven't seen the scale move yet.
I am trying to focus on showing up at the gym 5 days a week, and keeping my food clean.
Hopefully I will learn more about myself, and what works for me in this process.