People always assume I'm tired! Bitch, I just slept 10 hours and I feel fabulous!

I have no eyelashes, and hooded eyelids that are drooping even more now that I'm in my 50s. And the "bag" under my left eye? That's from a neurological shit show about 10 years ago. God. Back off, already. I'm not tired, and I'm not getting fillers or surgeries to convince you.

At least I didn’t have brownies!
This was so good!

Talked on the phone with my friend for like four hours. I’m so lucky to have her. Do you all like to talk on the phone? Do you call your friends? I always think that I hate it and I very rarely initiate, some of my closest friends and I don’t call each other at all, but I never regret it after, and I always wish I did it more.

#ThemelessTuesday

Tried the gym after work today...I didn't do as much as I usually do, there were so many people out. My anxiety kept flaring, making it hard to breathe properly, and with all the available treadmills, why do people get on the ones closest to me...people make me panic 😂😬

Going to try my hardest to get here first thing tomorrow morning before work and see how that goes.

But, on a positive note, I'm half pound away from my first transformer game goal and 3.5 pounds away from this game's goal...woot!

#NeedToStopFreakingOutAroundPeople
#IHaveGoals #AlsoWorldsSmallest(Largest?)Bubble #StopInvadingMyBubble #IntrovertProblems

Big ol’ bare belly featuring yesterday’s hair, makeup (or lack of it), armpit hole from high school Smiths t-shirt that I can’t give up, and Sylvia. Couldn’t miss the last one of the month! I’m at about 50% of goal, so there’s no telling how this ones gonna turn out. I replaced the dead veggies in my fridge and I’m ready to give it my best shot! FIN or whatever it is, Thomas, I forget 😄 hopefully I drop a couple pounds after a few days of not drinking wine by the bottle and eating pot brownies every time I enter the kitchen.

#BareBellyMonday

Miss you guys! Been in retreat mode for a minute- not responding well to texts, not answering calls, not checking any social media, and surprisingly, checking out from this group :(
When I get behind I feel like I have to catch up before I can contribute anything, which can be overwhelming, but that’s not healthy thinking.

So! I’m going to enjoy #selfcaresunday by picking up the pieces of a neglectful week! Catching up on posts here, on cleaning, gonna inventory the fridge (throw out all the vegetables I let die) and get a plan together to try to end February strong.

I have to have a lot of discipline for the rest of the month if I’ve got any chance of winning this round. But I can do it! And I’m proud of myself for coming back instead of writing this round off and potentially taking another year long break from something that gives me so much joy and motivation and connection to the world right now.

I know I’m always blah blah blah’in and writing mental health diary posts here, but dammit if it doesn’t usually make me feel better! And I’m hoping to get to a point where I contribute more happy than sad! This is a happy post :)

Here’s a pic from Valentine’s Day, because that’s pretty much the last day I was DB and never got around to posting about the nice day I had. <333

My self care has taken place in the mind this week (And before this week.) I find that, mentally, I am really susceptible to the type of content/media/information that I consume. I have been trying to consume content/information in a way that is healthier and more in line with my mental, spiritual, and physical health goals. I am working on stewarding my attention better when it comes to social media and entertainment. That’s the concept- the implementation looks like less clicks on divisive content and unfollowing companies or celebrities who use their platforms to manipulate emotions and depend on outrage to remain relevant. Have a great Sunday y’all.

#SaturdayShenanigans

We know how to party.

A low-key Saturday. Movie time with the kids. My daughter wanted to watch a good Will Smith movie. I Am Legend it is.