Well I had a little too much fun on my long weekend with the girls.

GUYS! The scale FINALLY moved! After literally 6 weeks of it bouncing around within a pound, it finally dropped a little bit! I've started eating big salads with very minimal dressing for lunch instead of my usually leftovers, and I think that's what made the difference since it's literally the only thing I've changed. So here's to hoping the scale keeps moving in that downward direction

Enjoyed my treats this weekend (though I actually didn’t make the second meal, the first lasted the whole weekend) and back to it. I have plans to make caramel apples with my sister at Halloween, so I’m back to eating extremely clean until then. Scale up 2 lbs this morning, I suspect that I probably actually gained less than a pound but we’ll see how it shakes out between now and Wednesday!

I'm a little ambivalent on the weight I reached today. Today I hit the weight I was the first time I freaked out in high school about being fat. While I'm thrilled that I've lost a total of 50 pounds since finding DietBet, the actual number is weirdly tangled in my brain, and it's bringing up a lot about how unhealthy my relationship with food and weight used to be. Which is weird, because I think of myself as somebody who doesn't care about body image. I think processing this is going to be more of a challenge that I expected. But 50 pounds is 50 pounds, right?