I want to succeed, but I truely disgust myself to the point of self-loathing!! 

I'm hoping this bump in the road is the only one. After a healthy dinner of shredded chicken, broccoli, and roasted potatoes, I felt full and satisfied. I went to bed at 10pm after drinking two full glasses of water. Got up at 10:30 and ate chips and cheese. Yep. And ate it so fast it was like it never happened. With the evidence at the bottom of the garbage can, I climbed back into bed and let the guilt wash over me. All those calories saved from the week, gained back in 5 minutes. 

Will I ever really be able to ignore my cravings? Why is it that when I binge, I binge so much?! 

I set up the situation in my head to justify the behavior. It's my one cheat day. I'll do better tomorrow. You didn't reach the step goal today, it's already a fail. If I eat really healthy it will even out. One binge a week isn't so bad. 

I don't think I will be able to meet my goal unless I figure out how to STOP the shameful, disgusting binging! I'm discouraged. How do I bounce back and not fall into this trap?